Forgive me my teacher…
Ever get the nagging feeling something is missing in your yoga practice and interactions with teachers?
Sometimes there’s an attitude of relativity and acceptance that simply doesn’t always fulfill me.
I can always take down dog or child’s pose as I need to? Or uses props and adjust as I want in the asanas? It’s my practice and don’t need to compare it to others?
Really that just doesn’t leave room for good old fashion guilt! 😉
I almost feel like I want a yoga Priest/Priestess where I might confess my yoga sins. Perhaps something along these lines:
Student: “Forgive me my teacher. It’s been a week since my last practice. And almost two since my last class…”
Teacher: “Go on.”
Student: “I go to using a prop out of habit without awareness and so avoid really exploring the asana I’m working on.
Instead of listening and learning from my body’s action in a pose, I subtly twist and look at the clock to see how long I’ve held it so far and how long until the class ends.
Often in savasaana, I think about when, and what, I’m going to eat afterwards and whether I worked hard enough to get a treat too….”*
Teacher: “I see. Take 3 extra Sun Salutations each practice and work on three new asanas you’ve never tried before in the coming week. And work toward changing all that. Now go and practice in peace.”
Whew. Feeling better already!
I wonder if I’ve earned that chocolate bar I’ve been eying while writing this…
* For the record – yes I do all of those things. I’m probably the worst clock watcher ever. Even when there is not a clock to watch I follow the time in my head and think about it. 😉